Holiday Blues

An Original Song by Amy Alls

Cold, winter nights
Chillin’ me to the bone
Wish this holiday cheer
Would just leave me alone

All the bells and the carols
Bring me down to the ground
Got them holiday blues
Without you hangin’ ‘round

Too many nights with no stars in the sky
Too many frozen goodbyes
Too many memories linger ever still
Too many thoughts on my mind

Stockin’s hung by the fire
Mistletoe everywhere
Shoppin’ bags, empty boxes,
Wrappin’ paper, I don’t care

Smiles from strangers passin’ by
Don’t change my somber frown
Got them holiday blues
Without you hangin’ ‘round

Too many nights all alone in the world
Too many dreams of the past
Too many wishes come and gone through the years
Too many hopes of mine dashed

Cold, winter nights
Chillin’ me to the bone
Wish my love to be happy
Even if I’m all alone

All the best in the world
To the best that I’ve found
Got them holiday blues
Without you hangin’ ‘round

Got them holiday blues
Without you hangin’ ‘round

I Can't Sleep Anymore

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

Chorus
I can't sleep anymore
Since you went away
I can't sleep anymore
Since that cold December day

I can't sleep anymore
Since you tore my heart in two
I can't sleep anymore
When I'm not sleeping next to you

My eyes are so tired
And they're just getting harder to close
My head's hanging low
But I can't seem to ever just doze off

(Chorus)

Some day I hope
I can forget
The feel of you right by my side

Until that day
I'm filled with regret
And lost in the dark of the night

(Chorus)

One Little Voice (For Abigail)

An Original Lullaby by: Amy Alls


One little baby
One little voice
One little reason to smile

One little answer
To all the World’s noise
One little future child

One tiny hand to
Hold on to your finger
One tiny set of blue eyes

One special moment
That lasts for a lifetime
One little angel in disguise

Come On

I'm not gonna fall in love with you
I don't want some great romance
I don't feel like growing old with you
I just want to get into your pants
So give me a chance and

CHORUS
Stop wasting my time
You don't care about my mind
What more do you think you're gonna find
When we've only got tonight

I'm sure that you think you've got it made
All your sensitive guy dues have been paid
Congratulations!
Turn out the light!

I don't have a favorite color
Don't like flowers 'less they're dead
Not that those things matter anyway
Just shut up, let's go to bed

(CHORUS)

I don't want to know your dog's name
I don't care about your mom
Thanks for asking my opinion
But just take me home come on, come on

(CHORUS)

(REPEAT 1ST VERSE)

Marianne's Revenge

An Original Ballad By: Amy Alls
(Inspired by the Monologue "Marianne, or: How I Spent My Summer Vacation" by Adam Hahn)




Down this road there’s a man
Who done me wrong. Now I plan
To take his life into my hands
Throw his heart as far as I can
Into the ocean
Into the ocean

One by one I’ll cut off his extremities
Watch him suffer the way he tortured me
Lock his parts in a box and send to sea
Pieces of our shattered history

I’ll sneak up on him in the middle of the night
Wrap a rope around his neck so tight
Let him struggle until I see dawn’s first light
Watch him die with a grin of sheer delight

Down this road there’s a man
Who done me wrong. Now I plan
To take his life into my hands
Throw his heart as far as I can
Into the ocean
Into the ocean

I’ll break into his house while he’s taking a bath
Throw a toaster in the water while I laugh
Fry him slowly enough so he knows that
I’m the one who made this happen

I’ll slip poison into his favorite drink
Make him swallow it fast before he can think
Stuff him into a bag to avoid the stink
Feel my heart rise up as the rest of him sinks

Down this road there’s a man
Who done me wrong. Now I plan
To take his life into my hands
Throw his heart as far as I can
Into the ocean
Into the ocean

I will break all his bones with an old rusty hammer
I will not let him scream as the rest of him shatters
I will keep him alive with the pain he encounters
At the end he will know all that really matters

Bit by bit I will ground his bones into a paste
Serve him up to the dogs and leave nothing to waste
Save the heart on a platter for myself I have placed
When he’s gone maybe he will know all I have faced

Down this road there’s a man
Who done me wrong. Now I plan
To take his life into my hands
Throw his heart as far as I can
Into the ocean
Into the ocean

With this gun and one bullet I will tear him apart
Rip his internal organs except for his heart
That I’ll save for the west where I’ve said from the start
I will throw it as far as I can out to the sharks

By the teeth of this saw, he will see just how strong
I can be and have been for all of my life long
I will send him to hell ‘cause it’s where he belongs
He will know he should not have done me wrong

Down this road there’s a man
Who done me wrong. Now I plan
To take his life into my hands
Throw his heart as far as I can
Into the ocean
Into the ocean

The Last Real Diner

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

At the end of this road
Is the only real diner left in the world
Where the coffee is endless and
The waitress’s fingers are stained from
The ink of a pen

At the end of this road
Is the only real diner you’ll see for miles
Where the steam from the coffee
Mingles with the smoke in the air and the memories
From days gone by

Pretend that yesterday
Hasn’t gone away and
Everything’s just as before
When you paid at the counter
Left the tip on the table and
Smiled as you walked out the door

At the end of this road
Is the only real diner I’ve found
With tables in gingham and
The bright neon sign in the window
Says “OPEN” year round

Pretend that yesterday
Hasn’t gone away and
Everything’s just as before
When you paid at the counter
Left the tip on the table and
Smiled as you walked out the door

At the end of this road
Is the only real diner left in the world
Where the coffee is endless and
The waitress’s fingers are stained from
The ink of a pen

The Love Almost Written in the Stars

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

(Performed at the No Shame Roanoke Season Premiere on September 2, 2005)

If you fall in love with me
You’ll never be the same
And I love you just the way you are today my love
And I hope you’ll never change

If you feel too close to me
I’ll happily step aside
I wouldn’t and I couldn’t stand to lose you now
Or the longing that’s building in your eyes

I’d rather love you from afar
‘Cause I’ll never be quite as good as you are
So you see
It must be
Just the memory
Of the love almost written in the stars

If you try to kiss me tonight
I just might be inclined to respond
But then after all the laughter and the love we share
It’s better if we sever the bond

If you need to hold me some more
I may not ignore your advance
But remember to never fall in love with me
Or you’ll ruin the perfect romance

I’d rather love you from afar
‘Cause I’ll never be quite as good as you are
So you see
To defeat
Certain tragedy
We’ll always have the love
Almost
Written

In the stars!

Beat Me Down

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

When you left
Life went flat
Love was gone
That was that

Kind words ended
Hate exchanged
Hearts turned over
With every page

Beat me down ‘til I cry
Beat me down ‘til there’s nothing inside
Beat me down
So that I can be raised up again (and again)
Beat me down
So that I can be raised up again

Losing you
I lost me
Took that change
Just to see

One door closes
Mirrors smashed
One door opens
To freedom at last

Beat me down ‘til I cry
Beat me down ‘til there’s nothing inside
Beat me down
So that I can be raised up again (and again)
Beat me down
So that I can be raised up again

When you left
Life went on
Love was real
With you gone

Beat me down ‘til I cry
Beat me down ‘til there’s nothing inside
Beat me down
So that I can be raised up again (and again)
Beat me down
So that I can be raised up again

Broken Lullaby

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

Everybody’s got to
Cry sometimes
Even if it’s only
To free their aching mind

Even though it pains me
To see you suffer so
Maybe this will show you
The sorrow that I’ve known

Even though I’d like to
Wipe the tears from your eyes
I cannot just tell you
Everything will be alright

Everybody’s got to
Cry sometimes
This time has been given
To help open your eyes

How It's Done

An Original Song by: Amy Alls

I’ve made so many mistakes
I know exactly what it takes
To ruin what coulda been love

I’ve run ‘em through the mill
Brung ‘em in for the kill
I’m a show you just how it is done

You gotta try too hard
Push too far
‘Til you don’t know who you are anymore

You gotta cross all them lines
Gamble with time
‘Til you both lost your mind in the war

I guess you think I’d learn from all the pain I been through
The way to hold a lover ain’t the way that I do
But somethin’ must be wrong up in my head, else I’d be
Walking down that road with someone else besides me

But I try too hard
I push too far
‘Til I don’t know who we are anymore

I done crossed all those lines
Gambled with time
And time ain’t fair with keepin’ score

I’ve made too many mistakes
I know exactly what it takes
To ruin what coulda been love

I’ll run you through the mill
Bring ya in for the kill
I can show you just how it is done

Hopeless

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

I’m trying so hard not to fall
I’m clinging so tightly to my senses
My defenses are weakened by the words we share
The thoughtful stare in your eyes

If only I could be stronger
If only I could pretend
Try not to offend and chase you away
Just get through the end of the day

Walking the edge of romance
Balancing invisible lines
Tempting those binds to be broken at last
Freeing our hearts to love

But I’m trying so hard not to fall
I’m clinging ever tightly to my senses
My defenses are hopelessly weakened by you and
That thoughtful stare in your eyes

Freeing my heart to love

Eye Candy

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

Let me get a look at you, hey baby
Let me get a better view
Let me get a load of what you got cookin’
Let me take a gander or two

I see it’s not only me
That finds you so delightful
Don’t go
Please stay for a while
So I can get an eyeful

Let me get a look at you, hey baby
Let me get a better view
Let me get a load of what you got cookin’
Let me take a gander or two

I’m lost for words every time
You wander ‘round my way
Don’t go
Please stay for a while
‘Til I know what to say

Let me have another chance, hey mister
Give me just one other try
Oh please let me show you I’m just the sister
To hold you through the night

Just saddle up to me
If you dig this vibe I give
Don’t go
Please stay for a while
I’ll show you how to live

Let me get a look at you, hey baby
Let me
Get a better view!

Happily Ever After Yesterday

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

I wish I didn’t believe in happily ever after
I wish I didn’t feel the need to start again
I hope for the strength to move on and face the past with laughter
I will try until my dying day to live with this pain

Though, sometimes I wish
I could just walk away
And leave yesterday to goodbye
With my hands up
I could give up
I wouldn’t have to live up
To the promise I’d always keep trying

I wish I didn’t believe that love was forever
I wish I didn’t feel the need to always hold on
I hope for the memories to fade so I won’t remember
I will try to fight this refrain ‘til the day I am gone

If I could choose
I would break down and cry
And drown myself in my own tears
With my hands up
I could give up
I wouldn’t have to live up
To the strain on my heart all these years

But I’ll always believe in happily ever after
I will always succumb to the need to start again
I hope for the strength to move on and face the past with laughter
I will try until my dying day to live with this pain

Whenever You Touch Me

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

Whenever you touch me
I quiver with delight
Whenever you hold me
I shiver just a little despite
The fact

You make me feel so warm inside
So full of love and so alive
I’m glad to have you in my life
Whenever
You touch
Me

Whenever you whisper
“Sweet nothings” in my ear
You force me to listen
You chase away my fear

Whenever you’re near me
I’ll never be blue
Because I am so certain
I’m never getting over you
Because

You make me feel so warm inside
So full of love and so alive
I’m glad to have you in my life
Whenever
You touch
Me

Yes

Whenever
You touch
Me

A Dancer's Body

An Original Song By: Amy Alls

Well I don’t have a dancer’s body
And I don’t have a model’s smile
And maybe I will never be beautiful in your eyes
But, baby, I’d sure like to try

I have seen how you look at other women
I have witnessed that smile on your face
And maybe I won’t ever make you look at me that way
Because, baby, I know my place

I’ve waited so long to feel something inside more than dying
I’ve held on to hopeless devotion throughout all my crying
Now I am trying
To move on
Just as I am

If you can’t see the beauty within me
If you can’t look past all the flaws
Then maybe you should take a closer look at yourself
Because, baby, it’s all your loss

I’ve wasted my life hoping some day I’d be more than my face
I’ve fought my reflection and dealt with rejection from every place
Now I've set the pace
To move on
Just as I am

Even though I don’t have a dancer’s body
And I don’t have a model’s smile
And maybe I will never be beautiful in your eyes
But, baby, I’ll give you a try

Those Guys That Make Me Smile

I dig those dark, mysterious guys
With the darker, deep, so serious eyes
Every moment there’s another surpriseThat I can be party to

I dig those cats who are big and strong
That know how to take care of me all night long
Oh they’re always there for me when the going goes wrong
What’s a girl to do

How can I choose just one
When they’re all so much fun
After it’s all said and done
I just can’t decide

I dig those artsy, sensitive types
Standing outside my window on hot summer nights
Quoting poetic verses in costumes with tights
That really makes me swoon

I dig those cats in the snazzy suits
Always opening doors and paying for food
All that traveling in style really gets me in the mood
Sends me to the moon

It’s impossible to keep score
When there are so many more
Qualities I adore
I just can’t decide

But if I had to take a stance
And define romance
I’d say he’s got half a chance
If he can make smile
Yes, I really dig the guys who can make me smile

Redemption

Seeing you again
I should have said goodbye
I should have broken ties right there

Seeing you again
I made the same mistake
I tried to make amends but you didn't care

Now I seem to have lost my sense of pride
My state of mind between the lines
My self-reliance undefined
Oh where is my redemption

Seeing you again
Confrontation of the lies
The lies you told to keep it all inside

Seeing you again
Memories flooding through my veins
All the pain I tried so hard to hide

Now I seem to have lost my sense of pride
My state of mind between the lines
My self-reliance undefined
Oh wehere is my redemption

Seeing you again
I should have said goodbye
I should have broken ties
Broken ties right there

It's Been Awhile

It's been awhile
Since anyone said my name the way you said my name just now
It's been awhile
Since anyone looked at me the way you looked at me just now
Right here and now

I wasn't born to be hidden away from this world
But somehow I became the invisible girl
So, forgive my reactions if they seem somewhat dry
I'm not used to confrontation and I'm really very shy, because

It's been awhile
Since anyone said my name the way you said my name just now
It's been so long
Since anyone wanted me the way you wanted me just now
Right here and now

I've just been singing my heart out to take away the pain
Somewhere along the way I ran into you again
I'm glad that you noticed me and you looked at me that way
I only wish that I was bold enough to know exactly what to say, but

It's been awhile
Since anyone said my name the way you said my name just now
It's been too long
Since anyone called to me the way you called to me just now
Right here and now

I hope to keep you entertained the best way that I can
Though I'm sure my memory will fade and our time together end
So forgive my intentions if they seem set in stone
But I'm settled walking down this rocky path alone, because

It's been awhile
Since anyone said my name the way you said my name just now
It's been too long
Since anyone cheered me on the way you cheered me on
Just now

Done and Outta Here

Stick a fork in me

I'm done baby

Turn the oven off

I'm fried

This heat in here's too hot for me

I'm burning up inside

In this lifetime

I've been wishing

To be someone I'll never be

Now I'm finished

With my wishing

I'm ready to be free

Stick a fork in me

I'm done baby

Turn the oven off

I'm fried

This heat in here's unbearable

I've got to get outside

I've got to get my life back again

My hopes, my goals, my dreams

There's just one thing

I have left to do

Before I'm back to my old schemes

Stick a fork in me

I'm done baby

Turn the oven off

I'm fried

This heat in here is killing me

I've got to live my life

I'm outta here, baby

Who's got my drink?

A Little More of Me

Maybe if I had been

A little more of me and

A little less of whom

You wanted me to be

Maybe, then maybe

Oh maybe my love

You'd still be around

I've reached for a star

And I've fallen so far

That I thought I'd never

Get up again

I've made some mistakes

'Til I lost what it takes

To keep it together and

Stay on the mend

On the mend and

Maybe if I had been

A little more of me and

A little less of whome

You wanted me to be

Maybe, then maybe

Oh maybe my love

You'd still be around

There's a hold in my heart and

I'm falling apart 'cause

I know that I have

Lost all my chances

And I'm dying inside 'cause

I've lost all my pride and

Maybe I'll never know

What romance is

What romance is anyway

Maybe if I had been

A little more of me and

A little less of whom

You wanted me to be

Maybe, then maybe

Oh maybe my love

You'd still be around

You'd still be around!

This Crazy Girl

Could you just pretend

That you love me for today

Would you please pretend

That I mean anything to you in any way

Could you make believe

That I am better than what you led me to believe

Can you just tell me please

That I am more than just this crazy girl

Would you lie to me

Tell me that I am beautiful

Would you lead me on

Make me feel good just for awhile

Could you fake it out

Make it feel like it's more than what it's all about

Can you just tell me please

That I am more than just this crazy girl

This crazy girl may not deserve love

But that doesn't mean living without it's ever good enough

How much more time do I have to give up

Before

I am more

Than just this crazy girl

Could you just pretend

For one day that it's all true

Could you please pretend

That you want me the way that I need you

Would you make believe

That it's all some great romantic fantasy

Can you just tell me please

That I am more than just this crazy girl

Can you just tell me please

That I am more than just

This crazy girl

I Don't Care

I don't care

That you left me there

All alone

I don't care

That you lied

To all of your friends

I don't care

If your life is spinning

Out of control

Because your life isn't my life anymore

I don't care

That you said you loved me

Then let me go

I don't care

That you spit

In my face

I don't care

That you were ashamed

Of all we had

Because your life isn't my life anymore

Maybe it's harder to sleep at night

When all I think of is what could have been

Maybe my life would be better

If I had never let you in

Now

I don't care

That your promises

Were all in vain

I don't care

That I cry myself to sleep

Every night

I don't care

That you don't need me

To make you smile

Because your life isn't my life anymore

Somehow I should have known

You would leave me in the end

But I wanted so hard to believe

Everything that you said to me

Now

I don't care

That it's over now

And my love is gone

I don't care

That you never

Said goodbye

I don't care

If I never love

Again

Because your life isn't my life anymore

No, your life isn't my life...

I've Been Walking Down That Road

I've been walking down that road of rejection

Adn I don't know how I keep rolling on

I guess I'm just hopelessly starved for affection

So I'll just keep walking down that road all alone

When I fell in love with you

I guess I didn't understand

That a man doesn't love a woman

Just because a woman loves a man

So it took me by surprise

When you walked out that door

Taking every bit of love away

That I had given you before

Leaving me to walk down that road of rejection

Never knowing how I'll keep rolling on

I guess I'm just hopelessly starved for affection

So I'll just keeping walking down that road all alone

If you think you can just walk away

You'd better think again

'Cause I'm gonna love you even if means

We can only be friends

And I have to walk down that road of rejection

Never knowing how I'll keep rolling on

I guess I'll always be hopelessly starved for affection

So I'll just keep walking down that road all alone

Yes, I'll keep walking

Down that road

All alone

My Apology

What do you want from me

I gave you my dignity

There's nothing left of me

To give to you

How can I make you see

I never meant for this to be

The sade result of jealousy

The end of us

I tried too hard and I failed even harder

Now I'm drowning in the waters of this woe

What can I give to you

To prove my intentions true

To change the new point of view

You have of me

I've cried so long and I've tried to be stronger

But I'm lost with this hunger to talk to you again

My soul is spent and dry

I've no more tears left to cry

I just want you to know that

I offer my apology

All that's left of me

All that's left of me

Is yours

Maybe Some Day

Maybe some day I'll come around

Maybe some day I won't be bound by this love

Choosing to live my life in pain

Always standing outside in the rain

Somehow I'll be dry again

Maybe some day

Maybe some day I'll start to see

Maybe some day there's hope for me possibly

And if that day should ever arrive

It will be the first day of my life

Until then I'll just have to survive

Maybe some day

The time moves slower when you're trying to walk too fast

So when the clock turns over, you find you're coming in last again

Maybe some day I'll come around

Maybe some day I'll never frown anymore

So when the clock turns over for me

I'll be ready to face destiny

No more wallowing in misery

Maybe some day

Yeah, maybe some day...